Scarhead's Place of Ranting!

10:22PM - Nano, Life and Fortuna's Garden

Well its been about a lifetime since I posted in here but life has been busy.

I absolutely love my new life here. I have a decent job that I don't hate. I have amazing roommates, 2 absolutely wonderful dogs  and a gorgeous home. Life is the polar opposite of what it was 8 months ago. ( happiness below the cut :) )

1:39AM - HOME AT LAST!!

Well I am finally home!!

My final days in BC were sad in some ways (saying goodbye to coworkers) and frustrating in others (roomates)

Anyway, I just wanted to thank you all again for letting me fill your friend page with my rantings over the last month or 2... you have no idea how much it helped to just vent it out! *Hugs all lj friends*

7:00AM - I sang to a goat because I'm sexy and I do what I want.

I copied this off the Circle of Crones site, from someone who got it off the blog of a writer named Kelly Kirch, who copied it from someone else, and so on and so on.

So? What's your sentence?

1:05AM - Confusion and mixed signals...

This blog has become something fairly important to me... so if you dont want to read my tedious blathering, i totally understand. But it isnt just about blogging to me. This is about venting and has become therapeutic. 

My home situation right now is hell. And I am 4500km from my friends and family. My roomate has taken to eavesdropping on my conversations on the phone. In all intents and purposes, she has cut me off from everyone but her. So when I am upset, angry or sad I have no one to confide in. So I confide in my blog and to you, my online friends. So even if you dont read beneath the cuts, thanks for letting me vent!

10:06PM - Yet another rant.

 ..thats all I seem to do lately but here I am again. 

OK I am too tired for a full out rant.... but 33 days, 11 hours,41 minutes and 31 seconds until i get out of here!!!!!!!!!!! Oh yes the count down is on!!!

3:44PM - I'm in love!! It's not what you think!

OK I am going to cut this because there will be bitching about roomates and photos of my new love *smods*...

 

3:10PM - The relief is gone...

So I told my other roomate and my godson today about my moving. She did not take it well.  First there was anger. "I thought you liked it here." "I thought you were happy." "How long have you been planning this?"

Then the real emotional blackmail began. The tears. She has been crying for almost 3 hours now. She is a 35 year old woman. Not a 10 year old on a temper tantrum.  I understand her being upset..ln fact I would be highly insulted if she weren't upset. But it has moved past the sad to see you go stage and is bordering on "oh woe is me...please pay attention to me". And honestly for someone who is supposed to be one of my best friends in the world...she hasnt even tried to understand that i need this move. I mean I have been an utter bitch (and I know this) for the last couple months. I hate being like that. I have barely left my room for more than work and meals in the last 2 months.  She is focussing solely on herself...not even her son/my godson...just her. 

Sorry I know this sounds horrible and like i dont care about her pain because I do...but she is a drama queen. Always has been. And it has always annoyed me.

11:38PM - A HUGE sigh of relief!!

So tonight I finally talked to my roomate about the fact that I want to move back home...and he was cool about it. He was understanding and very calm about it. I was afraid he would be angry or something. I still have to tell my other roomate and my godson. She will be upset I think. We have been best friends for 20 years so I hope she will understand.  I would hate for this to affect our friendship...I mean I cant stand living with her anymore but I do not hate her or anything. I love her to bits. My godson...well he is a 14 year old boy... he wont be too upset. Plus now I have a place to come visit if I want. I think tomorrow I will go in and talk to the store manager...and give them notice. I will be leaving February 23! So my last day of work will be the 21 or 22 of February.

You guys have no idea what a weigh off my chest this is...I was so worried. But now it feels real... I cannot wait to be back in Ontario!

11:49PM - Admiting my mistakes...

About a year and a half ago I made a decision. What I didnt know is that it was the biggest mistake of my life. I decided to move with friends across the country to Vancouver Island to live. 

3:56AM - Sleeping schedules - my schedule is different from yours...get over it!

What is it about surviving on next to no sleep that makes people feel like they are better than others? So you go to bed at 7 and get up at 9, good for you...would you like a medal?

I have been on the same whacky schedule for years now. I go to bed at 3 or 4 am, I read for an hour or 2 sometimes more and I get up at 10 or 11 usually. I usually work evening so this is the perfect schedule for me. Why do people feel this is a reason to mock me? Or joke about how much sleep i get. I dont find the need to tease them about their unhealthy fixation with my sleeping schedule.

I am an adult. I never miss a day of work because of my sleeping schedule. I maintain friendships and relationships despite my crazy sleeping habits. Why is this so important to people?

Just who am I offending because I dont get up at 9 am? And what gives people the right to judge me on this? Yes sometimes I sleep til noon. Those are the days that I dont get to sleep until 8 or 9... I average about 4-6 hours of sleep a night. Occasionally I will doze off earlier  and get a couple more hours but that is rare. I have dealt with insomnia for years now so if this schedule works for me then who are they to judge me?

Sorry for the rant but i have had several different people poke fun at my sleeping habits lately. And it is really beginning to bug me. What is it about our society that makes sleeping a bad thing? I am not being over indulgent or lazy, I just run on a different schedule.

11:13AM - Day 2 of Nano

Day 2 is here and I am already tired. I had better pace myself or  I will end up sleeping for the end of the month. 

Well my word count at the moment is 3342 not bad for the first day! I am trying to build up a nice little cushion so that if and when I hit writers block I won't have to panic and get behind.  So far things are moving pretty nicely in my story  I think. The prologue is finished and I have a healthy start to the first chapter.  I have an hour before I have to go to work so I think I will do a bit more writing. 

My roomates laughed at me last night. We watched Lost together and I had to keep running to the computer on the commercial breaks so that I could keep typing. I will be so glad to get my laptop back from those jackasses at MDG.  They have had it for almost 2 and 1/2 months now.  But that is a rant for another day.

4:34PM - Nano Anxieties!!

Good Lord! It is only a day away from Nano! I am excited, impatient, terrified and happy that its finally here. I think I am in pretty good shape as far as my preparation is concerned. I have had months to prepare for it. 

Don't read below unless you want to read my idiotic ramblings! :) You have been warned!! LOL

OK enough nonsense!! 

Happy Halloween everyone! *hands out chocolate treats to everyone*

12:23PM - More Grey's gushing!

3:30AM - Help?!?! And gushing about Grey's...

OK If anyone here is any good at changing LJ layouts can you please contact me and help me figure it out? I am so lost but I want to post a new fresh layout for my LJ!! HELP PLEASE!!!!

Great episode! Enough ranting :)

3:10AM

Well I did it! I signed up for NaNoWriMo ! So for the month of November I will submit to the insanity that is novel writing! I can hardly wait! 50,000 words in 30 days..it should be complete and utter chaos...but I love a good challenge!

I have been plotting out my story for ages. I have 3 notebooks filled with minor details of the characters and the settings and of course the plot outline. So what did I do tonight? Scrapped it all and began a new fresh outline. 

Originally I was going to have it a simple thriller type story about a woman searching for her younger sister who disappeared after her car broke down...now I am throwing a whole new supernatural edge to the mix. I think it could be good. I am really excited with the plot that I have been thinking of lately. I still have tons of work to do on developing my new plot but i cant stop writing about it!! Anyways I will be posting occasionally in here about my NaNo progress but until November I am still going to be pretty absent online. Real life is just too hectic to get anything done online.

3:09AM

My Personality

Neuroticism	85
Extraversion	43
Openness To Experience	66
Agreeableness	68
Conscientiousness	35

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You are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone. You can be very easily upset, even by what most people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be extremely sensitive and emotional. A desire for tradition does not prevent you from trying new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual. You have a strong interest in others' needs and well-being. You are pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.

So basically I am just boring...middle of the road on everything except that I am neurotic...but I guess I shouldnt be surprised!! LOL 

I got this idea from Lisa's LJ and someone else...sorry I dont remember who at the moment...but it is 3 am so you have to ignore my ramblings!! lol

10:22PM

Well I just had a big bit of good news. About a month ago my dad had pains in his chest and arm and had to go for tons of different tests because they were afraid it was his heart. After what felt like an eternity of waiting he finally got the test results today. It was NOT his heart it was a torn rotator cuff in his left shoulder!! In fact the doctor told him that he has less than a 5% chance of having a heart attack in the next 5 years! So now he has to go see an orthoscopic surgeon to determine whether or not he needs to have surgery on his shoulder. Butas much as I hate to see him suffering and having to go through the pain of a torn rotator cuff, I would rather see him go through that than to have a heart attack. So I am very relieved tonight!!

I just had to share my happiness!

12:38AM

OK I know I am clogging all my friends spaces today with my posting but I had to post about my first day at the card place! LOVED IT!!! It has to be the easiest job I have ever done in my life!! Seriously, it consisted of standing around and talking to Marie who was training me, we unwrapped some cards and straightened them out, helped out a few customers and rang stuff through the cash. Oh yeah and vaccuming..I LOVED IT!!! I can hardly wait for my next shift...my only bad point of the night was that we have to wear closed toed shoes but not running shoes. My only closed toed shoes are my high heeled boots. Now my feet and legs are throbbing. So tomorrow I am going shoe shopping!! YAY!

1:09PM - Another new job??

When I got up this morning I got a phone call... from another place that I applied to in my hurry to get out of Hell job Subway. It is our local movie store! They called this morning and asked me to go in and fill out an application. And I know the manager, I work with her daughter at Subway! And I told her all about my other part time job and she still wants me to come in and fill out the application. So everyone keep your fingers crossed for me!!

12:17AM - New Job, New Stories...New Fan?!?

New Job: I am finally out of Subway...Thank god! I start at a Carlton Card shop as a sales clerk tomorrow night. There are only 7 days left til I am finished at the hell job Subway. I dont know how much more of that miserable manager I can take. She is so two faced! Well as of the 26th I never have to see her again! YAY!!

New Stories: I am working on a sequel for the prefect story that I wrote for LogicalRaven on HPFF. I was asked numerous times through IM and reviews if I was going to write a sequel..so I guess I was inspired. I have an entire notebook dedicated to the planning of this one. It will be bigger and hopefully better than the first! I am also starting a new story with my favourite writing partner in the world JaxGranger. We are writing something really different for us. All I can say is that Timeturner will probably enjoy it! I am loving what we have come up with so far. But then again...that girl could write her grocery list and it would probably be amazing. She is seriously so talented!

New fans: OK well during an IM conversation with someone who I have completely adored on HPFF since I joined the site told me that she was a 'fan' of mine...Me? Are you freaking kidding me?!?! That just about knocked my socks off...I sat here grinning like an idiot for ages. In fact I am grinning again! First of all for anyone to say that...but this person is brilliant and I have been a huge follower of her work since ...forever!!